9 months of learning

Its been 9 months since I showed up at Haileys house with Kennedy looking like this

Its been 9 months to the day since these pictures were taken

9 months since I started my life over

9 months since I began to heal and learn

In these 9 months my life has changed immensely

I have grown

I have learned who I really am and what I really want out of life.

I have had so many changes

I have lost 45 lbs

I started exercising and going to the gym

I have realized how completely blessed I am and what an amazing support system I have

I have learned where my limits are in life and that I have no limits!

Every day has been such an experience

I take nothing for granted anymore

I have learned a lot about family

My family is amazing and I have really learned to appreciate them and make sure they stay in my life regardless of what someone else thinks

They have been there for me no matter what

They make me laugh

They love me

I have learned family is something in life you will always have and always need to keep

I have learned what incredible friends I have

A true friend loves you when you are at your worst

I have learned that I have a lot of true friends!!!

They have emotionally supported me in ways I could never imagine

I have learned that I am a pretty open person

Most people wouldnt share these pictures

Most people would be ashamed

Im not

I have learned I am an open book and that's just who I am

Thats who I like to be

That is what feels right to me

You never know who your life experiences will help

I have learned to express my love and feelings to everyone so much more

I dont hide what I feel

I have learned a lot about people

 I have learned to surround myself with those who accept me for who I am

I am not perfect

I have learned to embrace my imperfections

I have learned to start to love myself

I have learned not to compromise myself, my feelings or my thoughts for anyone else ever again

To stay true to me

and to my heart

I appreciate Kennedy so much more

I see what an example I need to set for her in life

I have learned how blessed I am to have such a sweet loving daughter who is too old for her own age

The last 9 months have came with a lot of ups and downs

Love, fear, hurt, anger, laughs, comfort, insecurities

But I wouldnt trade it for the world

I wouldnt be where I am today or who I am today with out them

I wouldnt realize how absolutely blessed I am

I wouldnt appreciate the incredible people in my life like I do

I wouldnt have made the new friends I have

I wouldnt have the outlook I do

I wouldnt realize the love in life there is from those you surround yourself with

So to everyone who has loved me

Thank you

Thank you for blessing my life and showing me whats really out there in this world and in myself